this is my last post

for real. I try so hard to get shut down so many times cause there is always someone better then me. whether it is in relationships, work, or even just friendships I am always that other guy. I am gonna try to make it into graduate school but if I dont make it then I will have lost what little hope I have left. my life feels like a downward spiral, at one point i felt like I did have it all but that point is gone and now I feel as if I am alone and all my aspirations are vanishing before my eyes. so here is my good bye to anyone who cares. from this point on I may be a different person, I will continue to hold my moral values but I wont be quick to be a friend just to be let down. i am saying good bye now with hopes of change.