and so

i keep walking, dreaming, and hoping for a positive change.
so much to wait for and so much to be plausibly regressed
all the blood spilled and eyes gouged out of their sockets
just for one moment of complete and utter joy
we smile and act like something could be
all love falls on false pretenses
we watch as the world cheats
each portion of the equation waits for something better.

been alone so long the idea of a relationship doesn't cross my mind anymore
my head has never felt lighter and my body feels ever so nauseous.

Details to keep the car new :)