Too much to think about

My eyes have turned to a dark shade of gray
Love found it's reasons to come and go
And I could never find reasons to stay
For if I did I'd call myself a coward
So I turned around and gave you the cold shoulder
"I'm sorry, I didn't mean to hurt her"
But all those apologies I never left unsaid
Found reasons to make their way out of my unforgiving head
Curse my name every time love finds ways into your life
My brand has scarred you and for that I do apologize
But I am not sorry that I could never love you again
It will always be my life I'll defend
I'm sorry I see you as a grudge
And I know our love will never amount to much

So do as you please
But know I am stubborn and will find reasons to leave
I'll turn my back when it is my lips you are looking for
And I'll shut my mouth when you want me to talk
Yes I have heard your cries and know it is me you adore
But to force anyone to love is a sin in itself
So I'll walk away as I've done many times before
And now I apologize for the pain you've had to endure.